I'm such a f00kin screw up sometimes.

Something that I said in the heat of the moment and then pasted in my journal offended someone I care deeply about.

To this person...

I never ever EVER meant for you to take it like that. Not in a million years. And you and I are the only ones that know the truth about what was spoken.

You still mean a lot to me and I cried when I saw how you interpreted that. I'm so sorry. I know nothing I can say and nothing I can do can ever take away all the pain I've caused you.

The other night, I hurt Nick and when I did this, I thought of you and all time pain I've caused you.

I'm so sorry and I know there's nothing I can truly do to make it up.

But I promise you this, with all that I am, that I'm becoming a better person...this time around.

I know I'd be risking everything I have with Warren if I told you how I still feel...

Everytime

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

~Britney Spears

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I'm so sorry, Josh.

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Warren, I love you and I promise you, we'll fix this getting you home problem :)