D is Dad and R is me. Here's what happened. Here's the entire conversation.
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D: Are you going to marry him?
R: No, it�s not a solution.
D: No, the fucker wants to have his cake and eat it too. He wants to be a friend and only be a father when he wants to be and that�s bull shit.
R: You don�t know what you�re talking about.
D: Fuck him.
R: What?
D: You have to choose. Are you gonna let him string you along?
R: You don�t know anything about him. He�s not like that.
D: No, you talk marriage and he wouldn�t have made love if he didn�t want you.
R: Dad
*cuts in*
D: No, he isn�t here. He doesn�t care. He just wants his cake and eat it too.
R: No
D: Yes, now do you want him in your child�s life?
R: He is the father.
D: He doesn�t want to be.
R: You don�t even know him.
D: Yes, I do and he�s a fucker. I try to talk to him and he fucking gives me the cold shoulder. He never could treat me like a human. That fuckin pissed me off. I try to talk to him and he fucking blows me off like I�m nothing.
R: No�
*cuts in*
D: Roni, if you aren�t going to listen then I don�t want you here.
R: What?
D: I thought about it and want you out.
R: I have no place to go.
D: Well, you should have thought of that. Don�t go running to Josh. He sure as hell doesn�t care.
R: Dad�
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D: No, get out by the end of the week.
R: Where do I go? I don�t even drive.
D: Should have thought about that before you two fucked.
R: No
D: Damn it, I mean it.
R: What about college? MACC?
D: Too late for that, you�ve lost your future.
R: What am I to do?
D: You figure it out because I don�t really give a fuck. He didn�t love you. He just wanted to fuck you and move on. He�s probably got a new girl he�s sticking it to.
R: No, Dad�
D: Guess you�ll have to think not that you�re out on your ass.
R: Where do I go?
D: I don�t give a damn.
R: How do I even get there?
D: Walk
R: I have no place and no way to get there. I have nothing.
D: Too bad.
R: But�
D: I�m not talking about this anymore. You�re just pissing me off. Just get the hell out of here.
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So, now what? I don't have a friggin clue what to do and I have no place to go and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
He meant it.
Maybe he's just doing this because of the timing. Dad just got diagnosed with a heart condition. On top of it, Uncle Ricky is sick and Mom is hurt. I don't know what the fuck to do.