Whoo buddy...there's so much to say.

I love St.Louis, by the way.

Oh and I sooo puked on the way home...heh.

There's so much I feel horrible about b/c Josh will never know.

Oh, and the baby is doing fine...as far as I know. *nods*

I'm thinking of going to Truman instead of MU b/c I think I can get my degree faster there. I don't know though if I want to. I'm going to go there either tomorrow or Weds to talk to them. I want to think this through.

Anyway, this is how I feel today:

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"Do I Have To Cry For You?" ~Nick Carter

Don't wanna close the door

Don't wanna give up on it

Don't wanna fight no more

You'll find a way around it

Where's the love we had

We can make it last

chorus:

Tell me what I gotta be

Tell me what you wanna do

Cause I can't live my life

The way you want me to

You know I can't go on

Livin' like we do

Do I have to cry for you

Do I have to cry for you

So tell me what it's for

If there's no winner in it

Nobody's keepin score

Let's start from the beginning

Can we make it last?

With the love we had

chorus:

Tell me what I gotta be?

Tell me what you wanna do?

Cause I can't live my life the way you want me to

You know you can't go on, living like we do?

Do I have to cry for you?

Do I have to cry for you?

Do I gotta stand in the cold dark night till the morning light, yeah

Do I have to say 'I won't let you get away'

What do I gotta be?

Tell me what you wanna do?

I can't live my life, the way you want me to

You know I can't go on, living like we do?

Do I have to cry for you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah hold on

You know I can't go on, living like we do

Do I have to cry for you?

Do I have to cry for you?