I don't want to lose Josh. I'm so scared that if I don't change my stupid ways then, I will. I bitch at him. He thinks I give him dirty looks. He thinks I'm mad at him all the time. I'm not. I'm really not. I wish I could prove that to him. I wish my "looks" didn't matter. I wish he could see in my heart and see how I really feel.
I love him...with all my heart. I don't want to hurt him. It KILLS me when he's sad or hurt.
I want to be his comfort.
I want to be his strength.
I want to be who he runs to.
I want him to see that I love him.
I want to be with him forever.
Please, PLEASE don't give up on me Josh. I'm working on it.
I love you, with all my heart.
I hope you read this tomorrow. I know you'll get a grin. Yes, it's "cutezers."
I love you, someone help me change.
The 2nd annual "New Roni Day" is on the 16th, maybe I can make things better as of then.
I love you Josh.