Every now and again as the sun starts to fall,
the night air begins to sweep through the sky,
but deep in my heart,
I begin to cry.
I think of those days,
earlier last monght.
So long ago,
yet if I close my eyes,
twas yesterday.
You flash through my mind and I let out a sigh.
I wonder if or what could have been.
What was it between us?
That mystical call,
that led me to trust you
or led to my fall.
I think of your smile
or your gentle laugh,
of calling me "girl",
of taking my hand.
I think of the party,
how you watched over me,
a gentle angel,
I wanted all the world to see.
I think of your hugs,
especially your kiss.
It was so perfect,
such an innocent bliss.
I think of you holding me
and of your warm arms,
how you held me so close,
yet took me so far.
I can't help but think
of those moments we shared
as you touched my lips,
I said a prayer.
For granted I took you,
Forever could I have had?
but too young,
too naive,
I watched as I lost all I had.
The moments didn't matter,
all happiness did fade,
you drifted away,
as I hid in shame.
I questioned myself.
I screamed,
I begged.
If only you had shot me,
then maybe I'd have had less pain.
But now you've reappeared,
like a thief in the night.
It's too much to handle,
yet it feels right.
I don't want to lose you,
a friendship means much
but I'm scared to draw you in,
I quiver at your touch.
You know I truly liked you
or maybe loved too soon,
but how much you hurt me,
words can never undo.
I don't want you to leave,
I don't want to not see you
but you can't feel this pain
nor would I wish it upon you.
I want you to be happy.
I want you to have love,
but by me you'll never feel it
By me,
there is none.
I hope I've never hurt you,
yet I hope you've felt some.
These words sting through me,
I think I'm going numb.
But you won't hear me cry,
as I slip into goodbye.
I'll simplly give a smile
and hold it all inside.
Giving up on it all,
it's not worth the fight.
Just tell me you're happy
and live a good life.
As the sun begins to wake
and a new day is born,
let me be a vacant memory,
your mind, no more, will I wander.