Josh,

I still love you and it sucks to be alone while this is going on.

I don't know, maybe we did rush.

I made you feel pressured for marriage and you felt you couldn't fill the void when we thought I wasn't pregnant.

I'm glad you're my friend.

You still mean the world to me.

Someday you will see that you are my soul mate.

Maybe you are hurt,

confused,

twisted,

used...(sounds like a song, eh?)

Maybe you are lost,

struggling,

fallen.

Maybe you need something else.

But, I need you.

I can't go through this alone.

It's OUR baby.