The more I think about it, the more I'm sure he's damned good and over it by now.

Either way...when did I start going so wrong in my life?

When did it get where no decent guys really notice me?

When did it get where I feel guilty riding with a guy I have a crush on...because I know he's a Christian and I'm scared he'll think less of me?

When did I get this way?

Even yet, I dont know if I want to change.
If I change, who would I be?
What would I do?
Could I be any more alone than I am now?

I like the attention, I do....but...I'm tired of guys just wanting sex or a one night stand.
I'm just...

confused and alone.

I dont know if anyone could ever understand...and oh, how I wish I had someone to talk to...