I can't sleep.

I can't sit.

I can't lay.

I can't eat.

I can't do anything.

I hurt.

I'm really sore.

I still bleed.

I'm in so much pain.

I also have this empty feeling.

I can't handle this.

I want my baby.

I want my life.

I want Josh.

I can't handle everything.

Look, I may be mean sometimes. I may not be the best person, but please give me my baby back.

I don't have dreams anymore.

I don't have hopes.

I don't have anything.

I don't even have Annastrianna.

If I could turn back time,

if only...

but I can't.

I've been so horrible.

I feel so bad.

I've lost Josh's baby.

How could he forgive me?

How can he be my friend?

I ruined it.

I lost our daughter.

I've lost everything.