It's all my fault.
I have been thinking about it.
I got where my lust was so strong that I lost sight of what mattered.
I lost sight of what I really wanted.
I was so concerned with you being my friend, that I stopped being yours.
I was so busy making you feel bad for all your flaws, that I never saw mine.
I hurt you.
I ruined us.
I can't believe I did it.
It hurts so bad.
I fear that you can never truly forgive me.
Oh, I don't know what I'd do without you in my life.
But then when I realized I lost you...I realized I didn't even have to be your friend. Just knowing how you are is enough.
I'm so sorry I got that way.
You tried to warn me.
You tried.
I didn't listen.
I couldn't.
I was caught up.
But, you loved me enough to hold on.
You cared enough to stay by my side.
Now, I hope you care enough to someday let me be yours again.
I know it's going to take time.
I just pray you don't fall in love with someone else.
I could never love anyone besides you.
I could never become anything to anyone like I was to you.
I could never live without you in my life.
I could never be happy.
I could never love again.
I will always love you.
I'm so sorry for everything.
What's worse is I ruined it.
Oh, please...please...give me another shot.
I'm begging.
Please.
We can make it work.
I swear.
I now remember it.
I remember it all.
Please say it's not too late.
Oh, I wish you only knew I felt this way.
Oh, I so screwed up.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I love you, Josh.
You asked me to never give up on you...now, please don't give up on me.
That's my plea.
That's what I truly want.
Let's take it slow.
Let's make up for lost time.
Let's make friendship our basis and not lust.
Let's let our thoughts mind/heart play a bigger role than our sexual/physical desires.
Oh...I ruined it and you'll never know how I feel.
Oh, God...please help me.
I need you in my life so bad.
I got so lost in sin that I even kicked God out.
I lost everything and everyone.
Please, let me have another chance.