14 more days until I move...
Now 14 reasons why I may not survive these next 14 days:
1. There's no real food in the house and well, I like food.
2. Dad's so nasty sweet and sucking up that I think he's draining my life.
3. I babysit from 6am-4pm today and the kids are nightmares...plus I get more babysitting fun before I move :S
4. My sunburn is still full of heat yet peeling now at the same time. I think I'm dying.
5. My Mom is on this mundo bitch mood. I think she needs a pill adjustment.
6. I need to lower my paxil again and I don't know if I can handle the anxiety.
7. I have no time to pack. Zero. Zilch. Even if I did...I have no where to put the stuff.
8. I'm getting uber frustrated over the fact I can't decide a new hairstyle for my haircut.
9. Ever just feel like something is wrong and you can't put your finger on it? yeah.
10. Friends are cha-cha-changing. Some are moving on with their lives, some are coming back into my life, and others just are floating in la la land.
11. Money money money. I don't have it, I need it, and bills could drown me.
12. My bed is a wreck to the point if you try to sleep on it, a spring stabs you in the side so I'm having to sleep on the living room floor nightly and the kittens think it's wrestling time when I do.
13. I'm wanting to move on with my life but I'm at a stand still and it's really bugging me. For example, I still need to take my drivers test but it keeps not happening.
14. Just AHHHHH. Life couldn't go slower if I paid it right now.
This all said...I'm not trying to rant, really...it's just BLAH.
So if you're interested, here's the current song of my life:
If You're Going Through Hell
Well you know those times
When you feel like there's a sign there on your back
Say's I don't mind if ya kick me
Seems like everybody has
Things go from bad to worse
You'd think they can't get worse than that
And then they do
You step off the straight and narrow
And you don't know where you are
Use the needle of your compass
To sew up your broken heart
Ask directions from a genie
In a bottle of Jim Beam
And she lies to You
That's when you learn the truth
If you're going through hell
Keep on going, Don't slow down
If you're scared, don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
Well I been deep down in that darkness
I been down to my last match
Felt a hundered different demons
Breathing fire in my back
And I knew that if I stumbled
I'd fall right into the trap that they were laying, Yeah
But the good news
Is there's angels everywhere out on the street
Holding out a hand to pull you back upon your feet
The one's that you been dragging for so long
You're on your knees
You might as well be praying
Guess what I'm saying
If you're going through hell
Keep on going, Don't slow down
If you're scared, don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah, If you're going through hell
Keep on moving, Face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
If you're going through hell
Keep on going, Don't slow down
If you're scared, don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah, If you're going through hell
Keep on moving, Face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah you might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah.
~Rodney Atikins