LAST YEAR, TODAY:
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Annastrianna Abigail Wright | 18/04/2004 |
I started having contractions. REAL CONTRACTIONS.
I was bleeding.
I started passing clots.
I was in pain.
I felt weak and was in so much pain.
Mom rushed me to the hospital and called Josh.
After blood tests and several ultrasounds, it's official.
I lost her.
Annastrianna Abigail Wright is gone.
I want her back.
Josh and I cried together, but, damn it. I feel like it's my fault.
Like there's something I did.
I can't face anyone right now.
I lost my baby.
I lost my angel.
I lost Josh's baby.
He's being so supportive and he's hurting. Pray for us both.
I really lost her :(
*cries*
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A YEAR LATER
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
A YEAR LATER. A FUCKING YEAR LATER!
I wrote a long letter to Annastrianna. I burned it. Along with it, I think I took half my hand.
It couldn't be read anyway, it was tear covered.
I still blame myself. I feel like it's my fault she died. I'm so sorry baby.
I think about her.. what would she be like?
I know she would have been beautiful.
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Annastrianna, I love you. I'll never forget you.
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Joshua, I hate you.
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Anyway, here I am...today...with that lamb I got Annastrianna.
Annastrianna, I love you. I wish you were here. You deserve to be more than me.
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Broken Down
It takes time
To heal the wound I've made along the way
If I'm blind
Open my eyes 'cause I need to see again
If I can feel again
Will you tell me now
Or wait til I'm broken down again
Save me now
I'm broken
If I bleed
My lies won't fill the emptiness inside
I just need
For something real to open up my mind
Breaking down
I'm breaking down
Breaking down
I'm breaking down
It takes time
If I can feel again
Will you tell me now
Or wait til I'm broken down again
Save me now
I'm broken
If I can feel again
Will you tell me now
Or wait til I'm broken down again
Save me now
I'm broken
It takes time
Breaking down
I'm breaking down
If I can feel again
~Sevendust