Sooo James didnt talk to me at all today and I don't know if it's just the whole he's scared or if it's he's avoiding me or if I did something wrong.
Nick can be a jackass though and he claims he talked to James. In which case, I get this horrible sinking feeling that he finished ruining whatever it was I didn't quite finish.
I didn't have any alcohol nor did any frats really talk to me. Swirls did a little though.
I havent decided about rush.
Also, I met Kent today and a few others.
I just don't know though anymore.
Things are so complicated and I just feel like looking around and with tearful eyes saying "what the fuck"
I can never reach warren either and most my moberly friends are becoming non-visable.
I spent some time with Sandy tonight. He is a nice guy and he can become a friend. Problem is, I guess most the night I talked about James.
I'm just so damned confused.
I ...guess....I already miss him.
*shrugs*
oh well, I stayed up until 6 am again. go me.
I just cant sleep.
Nothing is right.
Everything's a mess.
James, I'm so sorry for everything.